This love is difficult but it's real

I keep waiting for you but you never come; is this in my head? I don't know what to think. He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone. I love you and that's all I really know.

I love Taylor Swift <3

Almost as much as I love textsfromlastnight.com ha ha

(618): id fuck shawn from boy meets world only if we could name the baby topanga.

xoxo

We'll meet again someday

A week ago, on May 27th, one of my cousins passed away. He overdosed (we think, the official report hasn't even been released yet) on heroin and a mixture of other drugs.

I usually only saw him a few times a year, holidays and such, and whenever he did my piercings for me. We were never close, but we were always family, and I think my mom put it best when she said how every year she looked forward to his company when the family got together because he was always so funny and welcoming. It didn't actually matter if you were his best friend or just a customer at the shop, he was always kind. So even though I know that when people die, it's not really goodbye for forever, and that they truly are at rest and okay, it is hard for me to understand that he's gone.

The service was really beautiful, but watching his family carry the casket out at the end and hearing the bagpipes, and then seeing my cousin and the rest of the family cry... so sad.

I don't remember any words that were spoken during the service, it's kind of a blur, but I do take comfort in the fact that wherever he is, we'll meet again. I know death is just a part of the journey that everyone goes through, but...

I will really miss you. Whenever our family gets together, I think everyone will be thinking that something is missing. It just won't be the same without you there. I love you, and wherever you are, rest in peace. Goodbye for now.

April 5, 1980- May 27, 2009

We belong together now, forever united here somehow

Life as of 6.1.09

I've been with CJ for over 6 months, yay =] There have definitely been ups & downs but I think we're really good together.

My job has been going so well this past month and a half, I just love the kids in my room. Especially the twins. I know I play favorites, it's just so hard not to... =]

I'll be 20 in like two months.. what a downer birthday. So close to 21 and yet so far. I think I just want to go somewhere for the weekend, like a trip to Flagstaff with my boyfriend and then like a dinner with friends. Low-key. Maybe a river trip too...the best time you'll never remember :)

I found out Boston got his girlfriend pregnant. It's weird, thinking he is going to be a dad. To me, he'll always just be the biker from Boston who loves Jack Daniels. I guess everyone grows up!

Maybe I'll remember to update this more than twice a year. It's not like anyone reads it, but it's fun to read the things I thought x amount of months ago and realize how much I've changed :)

xoxo

=]

"When you start to think about him & how he makes you laugh & how he makes you feel when you're around him, you realize you care about him more than you thought you did."

My life...

new boyfriend.
christmas.
no school for a month.
bubble baths & take the cake ice cream.
life is good.

peace & happiness, I'll post resolutions soon!

xoxo

Hm nothing important

I feel like my life always goes back and forth, I can never just pick one thing. It's so frustrating.
But, I am SO excited Obama won.

I gave my presentation today though and I think I did a good job. I love powerpoint, they're fun to make haha.

I have a new job, at my favorite store, which means SHOPPING TIME!

peace & love

Love

I LIKE THIS QUOTE :)
"The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them, just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know, the heart is the center of the body, but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So here's a piece of advice; let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more."

XOXO

You get what you put in and people get what they deserve.

So this past Sunday was the Kid Rock concert! I love listening to his music live, and the concert was so fun :)